Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Feelin fepressed todey... very depressed...): Cannot think... Stoopit mom and dad... Stoopt world... Not enuff money, resulting in leaveing this WONDERFUL house and moving to a smaller cheaper house... until i finish sec school, then we fly to Canada... Studing there is so slack til i cannot stand it... Singapore's education system is wat i m used to and it is wat i wanna do... Plus i will never be able to do many things i could do in Singapore before. I will never see my friends again, never will be able to eat really spicy chilli, never b able to walk down Orchad Road, never will b able to do anything again! I M NOT MOVIN ANYWHERE!!! I HATE MY LIFE ): IT SUX! I FEEL LIKE KILLIN MYSELF ALL THE TIME... WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I USED TO DREAM OF ESCAPE ROUTES OUT OF THIS PLACE... NOW I DREAM OF JUMPING DOWN FROM HIGH-RISE APPARTMENTS OR FLATS... STILL WATS THE USE... I'D PROMISE MYSELF I WOULD DIE AS HAPPY AND CONTENDED AS I COULD POSSIBLY BE... THAT WAY I WILL REST IN PEACE... Sometimes i wonder wat is beyomd life? Is there an afterlife or is there recarnation(spell?)? Or do we just drift around as souls, doomed to walk the four corners of the Earth? Or maybe we just disapear into nothingness? Y m i thinking of this? I must b very depressed...K... changing the subject... 2dae there was the stoopit biology lesson boring! And after that i waited 2 hrs for my sis to finish gym! EVEN MORE BORING! Good thing she bought me cheesels!!! YUM! *Sigh* Even bloggin isn't curing me of my depression... i think i will go listen to music...
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